When a you first try to get help for depression, every mental health professional will ask the same four questions. The reason I've never been hospitalized for depression is the way I've answered these questions:
- Do you abuse alcohol? No.
- Do you abuse drugs? No.
- Do you feel the need to hurt someone? There are a few people I would really like to bitch-slap, but do I feel the need to excercise a little "population control"? No.
- Have you had thoughts of suicide? Here's were I make them be more specific.
- Have I thought about suicide? Yes, I have thought about the concept of suicide and I can completely understand why some people choose to take their own lives.
- Have I thought about committing suicide myself? No and there are two reasons why I couldn't do that.
- Reason number one is that I couldn't hurt the people who love me like that.
- Reason number two is the people who have tormented me during my life. To commit suicide would be allowing them to defeat me and I simply cannot allow that to happen; I must stay alive even if it is just out of spite.
*hugs*
ReplyDeleteREALLY good answer.
I find suicide a hot topic after the young man who wrote the long suicide note and all the comments and discussions that I got from that from my friends.
It's scary .. to unlearn my belief that suicide is a cowards way out.
It's not cowardly at all, but so much more.
It's not something I could ever do, but I understand now, a lot more.. why someone would, like that poor young man from Princeton.
How horrible to have had to live with that.
I have learned and unlearned much.
I can't have pity for them, they don't want it.. I do have awe... and compassion. I guess that's the key to what I've learned. Don't judge and just love.
*sigh*
It's a bigger world than ever dreamt of in my philosophy.. and even with the darkness to balance the light, I'm still glad to be on this journey called life!!
*huggles*
just some of my rambling thoughts.. hope you don't mind....