Day 03 – Something you have to forgive yourself for.

I have to forgive myself for allowing myself to be abused and for not getting out of a bad situation before I was too damaged. Does that make any sense? I know, I know … the person being abused is not the one at fault; but, the thing with psychological abuse is that there is no tangible evidence left behind. By the time I realized what was happening, the damage had already been done. Part of me feels that if I had just recognized that I was being abused sooner and put a stop to what was happening, or walked away from situation sooner, I wouldn't be in the state I'm in.

Hindsight is 20/20 and I can't change the past. All I can really do is learn from what has happened and use that to become a stronger person. I also realize that everything that has happened to me and everything that will happen to me plays a part in who I am … and I am a pretty amazing woman. I've just hit a really big speed bump in my life that is going to take a little while to get over. Everything will be okay and that light at the end of the tunnel is not the headlight of an oncoming train. I have to believe that.